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presidential.

presidential.

SOLO EXPEDITION TO PRAGUE / BERLIN,  2010

A life time ago I loved a man.  I loved him deeply, gently, tenderly.  He broke my heart, and I his.  It was a classic betrayal.  It was the first deep cut I ever suffered and although I have since healed, I am intrinsically connected through hopeless nostalgia.  We had been reading the Milan Kundera book, “The Unbearable Lightness of Being” to one another in bed.  We separated before the book was completed.  I waited 2 years before buying a new copy, and read every thing else Kundera had ever written first.  I booked a trip to visit the cities in which the book took place. I traveled there, alone, did lots of sight seeing and lots of aimless wandering.  I got lost.  I got sad.  I felt beautiful.  I people watched.  I thought about my grandparents.  I thought about eternal life.  I picked flowers.  I smiled at strangers.  I drank too much.  I walked too much.  I slept too little.  I was truly alone.

I completed the book in cafes and parks along my journey.  It kept me company.  

Looking back, it all seems so overly dramatic, but I was a quarter of a century old and I was wounded.  What I really learned was what I needed to be happy, and that sometimes feeling sad is the right path to closure and comfort.  Sometimes we need to find meaning in things, even if it’s false and foolish.

I haven’t much though about Kundera in the last year.  Finding these old film roles has been a painful yet pleasant reminder of the version of myself I will never be again.

Es muss sein, es muss sein.

#Homeward bound. My passport is officially ten years old! #arizona #phoenix #jfk #valleyofthesun #home  #passport #airport #travel ✈🌵 (at Delta Sky Club)

#Homeward bound. My passport is officially ten years old! #arizona #phoenix #jfk #valleyofthesun #home #passport #airport #travel ✈🌵 (at Delta Sky Club)

This will be the first Fall in 4 years that I will not be off on some adventure in a foreign country.  I feel like I was just sucker punched in the gut by these realization.  What does this say about my current life?  Am I less adventurous? Am I complacent?  I know for a fact I am pretty broke right now.  But still, it must mean something right?  I’m unnecessarily sad about this.

jessicat:
nevver:Luggage Tags
Wish I had these now for my Spain trip.

jessicat:

nevver:Luggage Tags

Wish I had these now for my Spain trip.

davidcates:

cape cod

davidcates:

cape cod

foxdoll:

Lets travel to the ends of the earth

foxdoll:

Lets travel to the ends of the earth

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